"Stop this train. I want to get off and go home again. I can't take this speed, it's movin' in..."
Lyrics from one of my favorite John Mayer songs currently tends to describe my life as I hit the fork in the road between childhood and becoming an adult. As a novice of the ever famous (and necessary) right of passage called college, I am slowly but surely figuring out who I am and who I want to become. Every decision I make at this point will effect my future...kind of a horrifying thought. I wouldn't say I am scared of getting older; however, I am a little nervous. But, as my mom always told me whenever I had first-day-of-school jitters or pre-performance doubts , "a little nerves are a good thing!"
I love how her voice is always in the back of my head when I get overwhelmed with life and what it's throwing in my direction. I find comfort in that little voice and the fact that I know God has a plan for me. He already knows what will come of my life and if I trust in Him, He will give me the desires of my heart so, why waste my time worrying? Easier said than done.
Sometimes we get so caught up in the little details and the trivial situations, such as having a five page paper due by midnight or a misunderstanding between friends. It's times like this when I'm sitting in the middle of a coffee shop, realizing how quickly my life has gone and how quickly it will continue to slip through my fingers...unless I change my attitude. I need to take my life by the horns, take advantage of every opportunity, and actually enjoy the ride.
"Don't stop this train. Don't for a minute change the place you're in...honestly, we'll never stop this train."