Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Stop this Train

"Stop this train. I want to get off and go home again. I can't take this speed, it's movin' in..."

Lyrics from one of my favorite John Mayer songs currently tends to describe my life as I hit the fork in the road between childhood and becoming an adult. As a novice of the ever famous (and necessary) right of passage called college, I am slowly but surely figuring out who I am and who I want to become. Every decision I make at this point will effect my future...kind of a horrifying thought. I wouldn't say I am scared of getting older; however, I am a little nervous. But, as my mom always told me whenever I had first-day-of-school jitters or pre-performance doubts , "a little nerves are a good thing!"

I love how her voice is always in the back of my head when I get overwhelmed with life and what it's throwing in my direction. I find comfort in that little voice and the fact that I know God has a plan for me. He already knows what will come of my life and if I trust in Him, He will give me the desires of my heart so, why waste my time worrying? Easier said than done.

Sometimes we get so caught up in the little details and the trivial situations, such as having a five page paper due by midnight or a misunderstanding between friends. It's times like this when I'm sitting in the middle of a coffee shop, realizing how quickly my life has gone and how quickly it will continue to slip through my fingers...unless I change my attitude. I need to take my life by the horns, take advantage of every opportunity, and actually enjoy the ride.

"Don't stop this train. Don't for a minute change the place you're in...honestly, we'll never stop this train."

Monday, March 28, 2011

Well, here goes

In the midst of class, homework, late night library sessions, formals, church, coffee dates, boyfriend time and other various college activities I seem to be plunging into simultaneously, I have somehow found the time to pursue a blog. Honestly, I have no idea what I will be posting/tagging/linking on here but spontaneity is all part of the experience, right? Hopefully my wit and charm will attract at least a few devoted viewers. If not, I can simply use this space for my collective thoughts, rants, and rationalizations about the world around me. 

For premiere post purposes, I might as well give my "viewers" (whoever you may be) the 411 on my life and why I decided to go through the somewhat daunting task of keeping up with a blog. 

I attend Baylor University in Waco, Texas and I am currently pursuing my Bachelors in Fashion Merchandising. Jesus is the number one man in my life, followed by my daddy as a very close second. I have been performing literally my entire life, yet I am terrified of public speaking; hence the reason why I created a blog. I can jot all of my thoughts, feelings, and opinions on a website and dub it a published work of art with the click of a button. So enticing. Who wouldn't do this? 

The only problem: college. 

As much as I would like to think I will habitually keep up with my posts, I have to face reality. Impulsive college life will throw stumbling blocks in every way possible, resulting in inevitable conformity to the stereotypical "flaky teen". Luckily, I won't be a teenager much longer. Come next February I can be placed under the label of "irresponsible young adult". Oh, joy. 

In the mean time, I will attempt to stay as devoted as possible to my "musings avant-garde", helping my viewers stay up-do-date with the latest news not only in fashion, but also in my life!